My fortune today read that I will be a guest to a royal host soon. Prior to this a random woman had stopped me in a massive crowd to ask me about my beliefs in God and His word. I am at a loss for the events that unfolded today, but my mind is like a roaring storm. I often find myself sitting alone contemplating my next move in life and whether it is going to be good enough in the eyes of those watching me.
I weigh my actions heavily on the acceptance of others. I’m tired.They say I’m so strong, but I’m weak. I crumble, I cry, and I humble myself. I hide my scars underneath my makeup and tuck away my sorrows in happy images. We all suffer, some more than others, but how do we make it stop. Through self-reassurance? Through the tears we cry? Through the miles we walk? Or through the words of God? I feel like our world is so messed up with people crushing one another for their personal views. No one ever just shuts up and minds their tongues. No one can say a thing without being judged! God is love. God is peace. God is nonjudgemental.
Why are we so quick to say we love God and yet with the same mouth we use to preach His word, we spit shackles to those we’re trying to reach. God said, come as you are, so let them!!! Let His followers come as they are on their terms. And when my time comes to be a guest to a royal host, I’ll tell Him I humbled myself when I was broken and when I was not. I broke away from the venomous words of many, but remained faithful through my quest to you.